Just waking up from one of the best nights I've had in a LONG time. I actually went out to dinner with Jason. I can't even believe it, after two years of not talking. He reached out over the weekend and I was so ready to say yes, especially after having that dream about him and Chris a few weeks ago. I've definitely been missing him and miss being able to randomly text him things that no one else would find funny or interesting. We just click and understand each other so well and we don't feel like we have to filter our speaking when we are together. But I knew it was important to actually talk things out and not ignore them, so I asked him the night before if we could do that. He responded with a "yeah def". Strangely enough, he was the one to initiate the "talking things out" portion of our discussion. That was amazing. But it was clear that we both went through some sad times without having each other. I think we were really honest with each other and understanding of each other. We talked about how many times we wished we could have shared an experience or a joke with the other person but couldn't. He said that Donna's great but she doesn't like to do everything he does and that hanging out with me was different than with anyone else. He said he was smiling all day knowing that we were going to be hanging out. I definitely was too. We're just very supportive of each other and I am soooo excited to have that back. We laughed about old times and new times and we just couldn't stop smiling. Two pints of Guinness was a good addition as well. But it was amazing to be able to tell each other how much we missed each other and how much our friendship means to each other and for each of us to apologize for things getting fucked up and to be able to plan to meet up and do stuff together again. After I told Jay that I wasn't sure if it would have been ok for us to hang out now that he's with Donna, he said that she knew we were going out and that one of his goals was to be more up front with people. That was probably the best thing I heard all night. But we were together for 2 1/2 hours and it FLEW by. When we left each other, I just couldn't wipe the smile off my face. He gave me this tube that said "In Case Of Emergency" on it and there was a Snickers inside with a note that said "I wasn't myself, I must have been hungry".
Then I opened his card when I got to the car and my eyes swelled up. This was just one of the nicest cards I've ever gotten.
Man, I am so grateful to have this friendship back.
I called Martina on the way home to share this experience and we just shared our amazement of the world together again and talked for an hour.
I am loving life and all the amazing things it has brought me this year. SO looking forward to all that is in store for 2015. Ah, I'm just so freaking happy.
