A lot to catch up on in this blog of mine. Last weekend was a manfriend weekend and it was the bomb. I hung out with Jay on Saturday (and a few hours with Chris as well). But we started off with buffalo calamari and buffalo wings and a few beers at Mohawk House (delicious) and caught up some more and chatted about the exciting plans we had for our futures. It was nice to just be silly again. Then we were off to meet Chris at Angry Erik's. We stopped at Quick Check on the way and grabbed some junky things and cigarettes. I have no idea what compelled me to do that, but it was one of those drinking days where having a cigarette in my mouth just seemed like the perfect addition to the day. We had a nice time with Chris, first time we had all been together in probably 3 years. So crazy. Then Chris left and Jay and I went to get pizza, then to the mall for coffee, watched the Wedding Ringer (surprisingly funny), and headed back home. Oh, and I saw Jay's parents and sister before the day started. So surreal. It feels so good to have things back to normal...well as normal as they can be.
The next day I went to Chris G's place for Superbowl (with Chris H). I wasn't planning on going because the weather was to be bad and I was trying to avoid more beer and crappy food. But my temptation got the best of me when I was thinking of being alone for such a social day. I'm so glad I went because those were some good laughs that I haven't had in a while. Great time! I just love those guys so much.
And then there was ice...and I worked from home. I don't really feel like typing out the whole story right now, but Rajae had sent an email saying he would be taking a half day PTO from us when we work from home. I was so angry and I knew I didn't want to feel that way the whole day because I had too much work to get done, so I responded with my reasoning for why it seemed unfair to me. He said we could talk about it when I was back in the office. The conversation didn't really go anywhere, but I had my satisfaction in knowing that he knew where I stood on the topic and I actually spoke my mind on something that was important to me (and the group). There was no reason that I shouldn't be the one speaking up. My dad asked on a previous storm, "There's NO ONE in your group that will stand up and say something??", implying that someone else should take a stand. Why not me? So it was me the next time. And Nicole was glad that I said something and opened the dialogue for change. That was a cool feeling.
There's a new girl in my group who I'm really not excited about. She's pretty rude and determined to move up the ladder. I'm trying to not let her get the best of me, but it will definitely be a challenge.
OH! And probably the biggest news. I'm looking into speech pathology programs. After telling myself over and over again for a few weeks that I was not following my truth by staying in Accounting, the "brick" hit me in the head saying "Go back to school for what you know you like!" And now that's the plan. I want to help people and I know this is a field where I can do that. Now I just need to research the loans process. It's going to be a roller coaster, I'm sure, but I really believe the universe is pushing me to this.
I've been a little messy with my spending the past two weeks, but today my credit card was put on hold for fraud. So now I have no credit card for the week, which isn't exactly the best timing, but maybe I'll have a little more control now that I know there is a limited amount of cash I have to use. Luckily pay day is this week.
My friendship with Martina is growing so much. We call each other all the time now and get each other more and more excited about the simplicities (and complexities) of life. She tagged me in this picture on FB and commented, "I think we've moved permanently to the other side of the bus!!!" She could not be more right. Life has gotten exponentially more exciting because of magic and imagination and sisterhood and truth - the list goes on!
And counseling is still going great. Brooke has a new office in Watchung, so it's been nice to be a little bit closer to work. She's so supportive and non-reactive to things that I'm embarrassed by. It's an amazing feeling to know you can say what you're really thinking and talk about things that are putting you in a vulnerable position (like the awkward conversation with the boss about not meeting expectations).
With the full schedule of work and meeting up with friends the past few weeks, it's been hard to stop to regain focus on health (mental and physical). That's why I was looking forward to this weekend so much. I can rest and also have time to go food shopping and do chores and all that jazz.
I think I'm going to go to Panera to do some work on the computer for a while tomorrow morning. It sounds good in my head, but it's 3am now, so I don't think that's going to happen. Lol, maybe I'll just stay home. Whatever, I'll let the day lead me where it decides.
Ok, I'm definitely ready for bed now. Gnite!
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