Calm in Anticipation

Ok, after a week or so of feeling a bit frazzled, I'm back! I went through my spurt of overspending and overeating, then the guilt and discomfort that followed, and now I'm on the other side (for the most part). I feel like, rather than trying to work to prevent these erratic bursts, I need to plan to allow for them to stay in my life (monetarily and physically). It's just a part of my cycle and I can't fight it (right now at least). Now I'm feeling very calm. I feel comfortable in the changes to come and am super excited for some amazing events planned for the next few months (Climbing PoeTree, Krishna Das, Marianne Williamson, and Third Eye Blind!!). I'm so looking forward to the thought of moving to the beach, while also feeling strong in the preparation for Brooke to go on maternity leave. I love working with her, but I feel like I am ready to go off on my own (and save $400 each month that can go toward my new place). I think I will work with her again when she comes back, but I'm planning on limiting it to once a month or something like that. I've been very into the idea of making friends and family members' special days extra special lately. I've been looking up cool gifts for Brooke for her baby as well as for her (for having a baby as well as a thank you for working with me) and I bought tickets to see Marianne with the hopes that it would be Martina's birthday present and we could go together. I came home with gifts on the kids' birthdays and St. Patrick's Day, which I haven't really been into the past few years. I don't want to add to the garbage in the house, so I limited it to candy and money or perfume and stuff like that. I'm also looking forward to getting my Meetup group up and running again. I want to research some topics that would work best along with supporting materials. I'm thinking some podcasts would be a great option so people don't have to spend money and they don't have to read in order to participate. I've been (mildly) incorporating prayer into my morning drives this week. I love the idea of asking for help on staying focused on where you really want to be and how you want to act each day. Listening to Marianne Williamson has been very inspiring as well. As she talks about the Universe, she talks about how it is crazy to say you are going to figure out the world alone instead of asking the Universe for support. The Universe is capable of such amazing things and we are part of that. I've been bumming around the house a lot lately and have been craving some excitement, maybe even just some more time with friends. Maybe that's why I cracked a bit with buying tickets to all these events and spending money on the kids and eating like crazy. Hmmm, wow, that makes so much sense! I'm also on the hunt for a community service project/organization to be a part of. I was a little disappointed with Hunger Helpers, though I am fascinated by that process and am glad I partipated. I'll do more research tonight. Oh, and I'm at Starbucks right now with my new iPad and am loving it. Ok, I guess I don't really have anything exciting to say at the moment, so I'll be back later!